Emo...

Until now I am fighting. What I am fighting for?. I have lost the feeling to keep on moving forward. I have lost enthusiasm for the living. I have forgotten the feeling to keep on moving forward. I let my self drifted away in this flow. I just pretending I am strong just because I wanted people around me can hold onto me as they loose their balance. I want to support them. But the truth I cannot event support my self. I am lost. I am drifted away. I am weak.. No matter how much i try to stand, it just I don't have enough energy. My body is like an empty vessel. Soul-less. I can't share my pain, worries, and all sad things with people around me. Each time I try,, either I being ignored or it creates misunderstand. The worse part they got what I mean but they wanted to forcefully settle it without really matter about me, till I can't be honest with them... I writing here, it's not because I wanted to hear from you,but I just wanted you to hear me. My soul is no more here.. but I promised I try to keep it up as my soul is here...till one day i will begone to the eternal place.. I will keep on living until that day comes..

Melodic that have been forgotten

Argh, I am not satisfied at all for what happened around me now. It's like most of unfortunate thing comes in my way each time i take a step forward. It makes me pushed back 3 step behind. I need a change but same goes as i try to change it become worser. I cant really recall my old thought, my way of thinking as i lost, completely lost my self now. I don't know anything now. Yesterday during mid-term test, i can feel how rusty my brain is... need some work out on it.. Is it because of environment that i'm living in now? or is it because my tiredness of this life? Emo~~ huhuhuhu unstable emotional that make me think all these think. Owh how much i wish for 1 day to settle down all these thing,and recall my melodic that have been forgotten... warm,sweet and sharp melodic...(wth, sharp??)