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Dear blog,

Another blabbing session from me. So this is how working life will be, tire out for weekdays and fully rest on weekends.. Well working in my sis office at first quite boring, i guess coz i am unclear about my task, i just do as i told, and stuck when i don't have any instruction. So basically i was like a robot, work based on input hahaha... well nothing much except i blend in with office mates and i still feeling a bit awkward since it's a new environment for me. i just hope i can do work smoothly and i still stuck. hahaha i always absent minded thou.. and sometimes fall asleep during working. well that's me.

salary, the paid is not high, well what you expect, i'm doing my industrial training, not officially work there and if i was about to apply working there, i doubt i will be accept with my experience and qualifications hahahaha well if possible i want to work different office than my family members, i lil bit shy to work when they were around.

normal days, i felt a lil bit closer to my brother and sisters as i living around them now, how much i want to involve with them without troubling them.. well i guess it's better if i not involve too much hahaha later being marked as busybody~~

well i for now i just want to graduate, and get my own job and transport. on weekend i want to visits them and bring some fancy2 food and enjoy with them and their kids.. well that's what i have in my mind, but all the time, all things came to my mind will never happen, so it just a dream, shatters when i awake. Reality are always harsh~~

love,
hurm for last few weeks keep having dream of chasing my ex, all the time, but when i awake i don't feel sad, i just feel it just a bad dream. i guess my emotions has came to accept the fact that she's no more there.. well time to time i do think how to improve my self when she's around, it's like "Proposal Daisuken's" drama where the main character went back to each time that he can fix what he had done to make the girl accept him hahahaha well if i can go back to time, i wont change nothing, since what have been happen in the past are beautiful moments that we won't have will to destroy. It just when i look to future, i have to let go...

hmmm~~

i think that's all for now,
Thank you~~

Snap from my sis's office desk~ hahaha

Drive~~

Dear blog,

Oh uh today i went out for driving after how many years was it since my last drive session. At first i'm pretty worried since it's my sis car, i thought i would have better confidence if it was my own car, well guess it's fine. Well the car's good and using auto transmission, i use to drive only on manual transmission so when i was in highway it feel a lil bit off when you want to step on to accelerate, well it kind 'a slow hahaha.. well for sure auto car more convenient to be drive to work as you'll be stuck in traffic jam~~ manual can be say as racing mode for me, he hehehe



that's all, no pic plis~~ :p

Calmn N Peace

Dear blog,


I awake around 1 am, grabbed my phone and wish her birthday... that time my feeling was upset, then i go to her blog, she updated her's and seems like she's living in good life now, n i can see how committed is she with her new bf, somehow i feel better, may be knowing that she's living well cures my pain.. i'm not sure anymore, but i'm glad i feeling that way, instead feel of jealousy i felt calm...

"please keep on living in happy life, coz i want to think that you will always be happy n having a cheerful smile on your face" this line i want to tell her, but let's just keep in with me..

well that's all,
thank you..

This song mode on~

Internship

Dear blog,

Yeah i now out of Cyberjaya, off to Puchong and every morning on weekdays will be going to USJ, my internship program has started.... Same office as my elder sister, and i been assign with some programming project, well now still in screen development stage, i know, i'm freaking slow, and i wonder how will it be when i reach the programming stage..... really don't ever want to think about it~ grrr


ok that's for my internship~

hurm result are out and my project is great but the only subject i have that time..... not so good but not too bad, but still i have to go mmu to settle things, wonder when and how i want to go there since i am freaking doing my internship now!!!

great..

My love life is being fucked up, my studies is down to earth, and what more? i don't know, the current me is the person who aren't willing to see what's ahead, just drag my body towards without concern about anything as long as i don't hurt other people especially my family and friends. You guys don't have to worry about me, i just laying here waiting for my end, but i won't do anything stupid thou. The life line on me will only ended with me, so i don't ever want to involve anyone into my life anymore, it's so pathetic, annoying everything about me, i think it over and over again and i got most of the answers..

ok





that's all, thank you~~ ^^

i'm suppose to use red tie...