KimZ

So nothing interesting to be shared here lately. So something come up to my mind, yeah one of my other name, which is "KimZ" the actual spelling with capital letter of 'K' and 'Z'. I came out of that name from combination of two names of the person that i respect. Well to me it's more to title rather than a name so i usually referring me as a KimZ.

title for what? hahahaha well that's is hard to explain, you will get it as the time goes by. but a hint, sometimes something happen need for me to make a choice and sometimes i will made choise and delcare it as, "as a KimZ i will....something2" well how to put it through words huh.... well nevermind just accept is as it be.

well.... that's all hohohoho

ps: that two names i use to create KimZ is actually someone involving martial art and inderstand deeply principle in the martial art that they involved. I not persoanlly involve in martial art but... hahaha it's just my nature >.<

The Joker

Well to be honest the title is really off about what i'm going to type here =,=" well that's just me. i wonder how many people really do go through reading my blog, hahaha.. i don't care, to me, this blog is pieces of me, just like puzzles, each story each post represent a pieces of me. to know me, these pieces will guide you through it. but the pieces sometimes are to complicated hahaha..

i don't know why, lately i feel like i want to love. after my hardwork getting rid of love feeling inside me, i finally seal it from my heart. but lately, i feel like, i want to trust someone, feels like i want to entrust my heart to someone. but each time i try, i realize there's something missing inside me. It's love is missing from me. when i'm with someone, i want to love the person, want to be with the person, but at a time, something strikes me, which is, "this is not the feeling.." then i back off again and again.. yeah i know you guys will say "that just not the person yet" it's not like i not agree with it, but... it just not about it... right now my heart is complicated, even the girl i want suddenly say she's now with the guy and she loves him,my feeling is nothing, no jealousy, heartache or anything. it was like "oh...yeah..." inside my heart. is it i am loosing my heart? hahaha i guess so.. well shall i start new play now? shall i rise the curtain now? shall i sing my new story now? the past play was like rarest gem but in the end turn to be just a mirage of the gem... what will it be? this new play, new story? this joker is now again changing his mask... till one day, someone brave enough and strong enough to cut through his mask and save him, free him from himself.. this joker is really tired keeping this infinite loop of story...he is really tired...time by time...he is breaking apart.....

the light...is too bringt isn't it?...