Someone by my side...

Hahahaha spoiler: emo posting (was listen to x-japan art of life while posting this)

i've seen my friend facebook quiz title " xxxxx just took the "What should your relationship status be?".. and it came to my mind, my feeling on relationship status, what it is? do i need someone by my side?... answer either yes or no, but i play with the words make it as, now not really.. am i denying the relationship? and again i answer, not really but it's just i not ready for it.. and next it'll be is it just ur excuse for avoiding relationship? and i just say, naah.. it's hard to get someone i can suit with.. well i was thinking, what type of person i am and what type of person suite me? i can't think any, it's simple but hard.. i don't like to be tied down, i want be free~ i don't want my mate worry on me, i am type of person that make person close to me worry much on me, make that person think i cant even survive by my own, but all these years i've been struggling to survive, i always have my own method to survive, to live.. my way of living is weird, it's like i make people think my life is over the edge but, somehow i ahve my own plans.. if it's doesn't work out, i'll always be saying " well it's ok, we figure some other way". i'm just a person who just want live a modest life, life that i don't have to worry too much, doesn't deal with people so much.. it's not like i am anti-social or something, it's just i want live a calmn, and modest live. people have no grudge on me, and i always be free to do wht i want. and surely if people bite me, i'll just slam 10000kg rock on them hahaha.. well i just want live a simple life..... when i have that simple life, then i will think how to enchance that simple life.
well most people nowdays want to live in luxury, lots of money and girls and all entertainment..somehow it's seems to be a happy way of life isn't it? that's what make me not suitable for realtionship, i can't find the person yet... eversince childhood, i draw a house by the lake side and dream to own the house, come back from work and have a nice weekend there... what a simple childhood dream.
hahaha don't know what the hell i'm blabberring now.. all in nonsense~ well, just have a feeling to post something, even it just a trash post.. :p

Blabber (dunno how many times dy)

Let's have a fashion talks today~ hahaha yeah what is my desired fashion? hurm currently i just wear whatever available infront of me, doesn't care much how does it suit me or not, then if it happen if i have a date, i will be like "Fuck!! What i should wear!" and end up with shirt n jeans~

well it's not like i dont have desire on my fashion, but since i was small, i just used to take on my bro's old shirt and i don't like to buy much new shirt, to me i feels like a waste, need to save money~~~ well i always have something in my mind about fashion but i keep it inside me till i got my work n my own salary~

huhuhu.. so most of my shirt is shirt i wear for years till the color are gone~ T,T but there's some new shirt i don't wear too much since it's seems too "formal" to me, and end up in the dark side at my house T,T

so my simple wear is jeans n shirt, dark color, mostly black. but i wish for casual wear like simple jacket hahaha and yakuza style of clothing, and also 70ties wear.. well i would like to try all of those, but need to get rid of my extra lagguage at my abs here T,T

err

design tht i like~~ but wear like ths in malaysia....T,T

The Last Song...

作詞：YOSHIKI 作曲：YOSHIKI

Watching the stars till they're gone
Like an actor all alone
Who never knew the story he was in
Who never knew the story ends
Like the sky reflecting my heart
All the colors become visible
When the morning begins
I'll read last line

終わらない雨　抱きしめた　夜が朝を向かえる
心はまだ濡れたまま

In endless rain I've been walking
Like a poet feeling pain
Trying to find the answers
Trying to hide the tears
But it was just a circle
That never ends
When the rain stops, I'll turn the page
The page of the first chapter

傷つくだけ　傷ついて　解ったはずの答えを
どうしてまだ　問いかけてる

Am I wrong to be hurt
Am I wrong to feel pain
Am I wrong to be in the rain
Am I wrong to wish the night won't end
Am I wrong to cry
But I know, It's not wrong to sing the last song
Cause forever fades

気がつけば又　独り夜の空を見つめてる
少しづつ消えて行く　Our　Memories
傷つくだけ　傷ついて　解ったはずの答えを
どうしてまだ　問いかけてる

I see red
I see blue
But the silver lining gradually takes over
When the morning begins
I'll be in the next chapter

終わらない雨　抱きしめた　夜が朝を向かえる
心はまだ濡れたまま
傷つくだけ　傷ついて　解ったはずの答えを
どうしてまだ　問いかけてる

it's been a while.....

i got my c905~ hahaha so happy, thanks mum n sis ^^. Well i love the camera function, at least i dun have to buy digital camera ^^.Yeah~ my journey in photograph word continues~

today was so cold, i had a weird dream where i was cycling back at my hometown, suddenly something floating behind me n chasing me, but as i speep up with all my guts left, the things seems want to race with me, and then i was like =,=".... i almost lost thou, then i wake up, my whole body pain.... stupid ghost!!

lately i realize that i'm become more insensitive person, wonder how to get over this... my heart become more dull and no strong feeling at all... am i becoming robot?? bbzz bzbzb zbbzbzb hahahah

i dunno what to write dy....my mind still all fuzzy...ok that's all for now =,="

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