New Year Post

HAHAHAHAHA ok i post based on my local time~

Dear blog...

Happy New year~~ hurm... I wish 2010 is better than 2009, more people to be met n know... more things to be done and learn and the most important thing.. don't do same mistake!!

2010... my phase 2 fyp then my training... God i pray for all things to be smooth and goes well. Please help me to convo during 2011 first sem~ please~~~

to people around me, thank you for being with me, for holding on to be around me even thou how annoying i am but you all still co-op with me, thank you guys. Lets have another great year and grab for our success~~

well my future ahead~ here i go~~~

well i actually foreseen a really tough roads lie ahead of me.... i hope i had enough strength to face another year...... wish me luck guys~~

that's all, thank you~~

What lies ahead of me?

H.A

p/s: yeah i knw new year post shorter than end year... i don't have lot of things to say, stuck in my room, lucky enough i had my laptop and internet connection with me.. if not i will me sleeping on my bed and snoring~ lol

End Year Post

Dear blog,

This is my end year post, i suppose to summarize my life this whole 2009 here, well being lazy to do so. Hahaha should i ? Well cut the crap. Hurm today i met with ex-primary schoolmate, we talks talks n talks, hahaha. We'll i'm glad they all do well in the path their choose. I wish you all the best guys ... err gals hahaha

Well i did re-visited the town, can be said.....it's changed!!! yeah no more place that we're use to hang out, place that i used to wait my ex to meet for dating, place that we always walks around.. hahaha all changed to main road, and new buildings. And old hotel where got restaurant that i always stop by for drinks also gone~ huhuhu oh noo~~ memories~~ i never thought those place can be gone just like that. Now all left in our memories....

well at least the 2-supermarket still there, place i use to go for shopping during my youth. hahahaha well sooner i guess they'll be gone too. I'm sure it's hard for them to compete with new mall there.. Aaa they also moved the bus station that i use to take bus to KL... well now can be said they have better and proper station, from what i hear thou. hahahaha this time i'll be going to kl by plane T,T...

Ok back to end-year topic.. What i had archived this year? Not much right? I didn't learn much things, but among few things i learn, it has it's own value. I hope i wont forget those lesson. Well too bad i will forgot them soon enough. I even forgot my last year vision =,=
But 2009 can be said a slow year to me... progression in improving my own self is very slow... yeah when i recall back, wasted year..... god i wish 2010 is better~~

well my study plan 2009 can be said a lil bit screw-up since some problems. Now my financing had to be re-arrange since i will most probably out of budget. (is it the right spelling there? hahaah) few more though subject to go, and all have to be push to after my training. God i pray for u, please let me do well in my FYP and all things going smooth...

2009.... people go away n new people come to my life... well.. that's life....

that's all..thank you...

End Year~~ ZZZZ

H.A

OFF TIME

Dear blog,

Right~~ I'm on my holiday now starting today~ 23'rd Of December.. Well recap for last week, my exam was on sunday till tuesday. How was the paper? All i can say my last paper is f-up. Well its math, you can't expect more from me, hahahaha.

Last week, yeah i did spent some great weekend... each time i recall back those days.. oh my god..... it was wonderful... Well for sure those days won't come again next time. I don't know, I've just had that feeling. I did lot of thinking and recall back from where it was began.. Well bad part about me i not good in guide my path. Since last time i've been told most people that i'm just like a wind, i can't be predicted but i'm not too complicated. Just like wind, i flow just as i like, unlike water, i don't vaporize.. hahaha what the hell i'm talking~

well last week also, along the joyful week and those happiness, something make me worry.. well it's not like i can't deal with it, but just i'm not sure.. well when the times comes, i'll sing the last chapter... just like in the song rite~ hahahaha

So later i'll be gone to my sis house before going back to my hometown. In my hometown for sure i'll be in my room.. all day.. hahahaha planning something exciting, but let just see how's everything goes on. I'm suppose not to be there too long, but... never mind, just wait n see, act as what happens around.

Yeah i removed my blog link from my facebook, why? hahahaha information limitation mode~~ i think that's explains well.

well that's all for now.. thank you~

Purposely edit this pic make it weird =,="

H.A

When Astronomy Turns Astrology

Dear blog...

I've done the most stupid mistake when doing my Final Year report. I suppose to use words "Astronomy" but end up doing "Astrology". My presentation will be tomorrow, and for sure it'll be fuck-up. Not just about the word error, but the information that I searched based on word Astrology also limited. I was thinking the system is still pure, no one ever develop it yet, so at least we'll be safe. I don't know how it will be tomorrow, but I hope spin around the words might save us... good luck to us then...

thank you...

(astronomy is not astrology...)

H.A

Thank you dear

Dear blog...

Ok this post may consist more grammatical error than previous posts, anyway what i want to say here is how thankful i am because you came to my life~

dear... thank you, you always be there for me, even thou you didn't notice, but yes you are always be there... just receiving your text is enough for me to warm my heart, thinking of you cease all my painful day... seeing you picture wash away all the tears of my heart... thank you dear...

i know anytime i might gone just like that, coz that's what we've promised right? so for each time passed, i want to make it as meaningful as much to teach both of us about love, life and to mature us. i might had fallen for you, hahaha you so sweet, charming and cute.... how could i wouldn't fall for you? :p but don't worry, promises is promises... ah another promise i made..... you know how bad i am with promises =,="

dear, i writing this when my body and mind is physically tired, hahahaha so anything you don't get it, text me ok? :p

that's all. thank you dear....

(err no comment =,=")

H.A

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Dear diary...

Hi, tonight is cold right? People start to go and gather with their family. Enjoying nice warm meal together with candle light's shines their happy faces.. I walked alone in the streets, i saw them... i don't envy them...somehow i feel glad, to see they all smiles.. Somehow i feel warmth flowing from my eyes... am i crying? i don't know why... i keep walking alone, seeing all people enjoying them self, either with their family or their friends... Should i go back and enjoy with my family? No..somehow i feel different.... i feel like i wasn't there..... i feel like i'm just only a photo frame there... in my heart.. there's something gone...

i keep on dragging my feet, forgetting about spending my time with my family.. they would definitely forgot of my absences... i don't mind.. as long as they were happy just like everybody else... my steps stopped at the junction... i see a kitten.... dirty and hungry....... i pick it up.... and walk with me.... somehow i can hear a cat calling for her child... yeah the child with me now... then i left the kitten with her mother.... continue walking.. with no where to go...

snow start falling..... i know what i had lost... i lost something that i can give, but i cannot feel the same thing when people gave it back to me.... i don't care.. i will keep on walking.... that's the only thing i can do now... this coldness... i don't care already.......because i know... my heart is dead...

people pass by, i smile and wave to them... wishing them all best in their days.... help them.. to find their path... but who will help me? hahahaha

some people might realize what's hidden beneath my smiles, but they often to drown in my tears... finally they loose them self... i've driven away all people seen my tears, so i won't hurt them... no one can help me...yeah... i've already fallen to this far.... only you blog can help me...

i keep on walking now.... till i see the light...shines to me.. guide me to where i suppose to be next.... leaving the past behind... with no regret...hatred...vengeful.. i leave the past as it is...

that's all.. thank you blog....

Ahh...the lights.....

H.A

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Dear blog,

My heart is now breathing the last breath.. currently enjoying the last love that i will let in, creating last sweet memories before i take a break for a long time..

She's the best. I don't know how to describe her, but she's the one that makes me feel I will regret to go eat, sleep or even blink my eyes when I'm with her. That's how precious times when I'm with her. Each minutes...each seconds counts so fast when I'm with her... it's like time being envy to me.. envy to me for spending few more seconds with her... If only I can be with her.. hahahaha

I try not to seriously involve but somehow I'm falling madly with her... she's special... When she smile, I feel something is burst out from my heart, when I see her lips I want to kiss her badly, when she's there standing beside me, I wanted hug her all day long....

But...we can't always get what we wanted... Pieces of time left for me with her..i will treasure it...so one day, I won't be regretting all by my self..

that's all, thank you

(actually want to upload another photo but.. hahaha u know rite?)

H.A