Hmm not sure what i am suppose to write but still i want to write it out..expressing my feeling. Breaking up my relationship makes me feel empty, each time seeing people around,couples around somehow trigger my jealousy or should i say, "i want to be like them" feeling, but when i was having relationship, it is not like it, it's more to not the way i wanted it to be, i somehow tried to cope with it but still, my limitation always came to the end.. I guess it is my fault that can't really accept the way she act, yeah it's too rude and i don't like the way she treated me when she piss off, it's like she never think of me... Then we can pretend that nothing happen on the other day, but inside me it still hurt..hmmh i guess i am too sensitive.. well it's all never mind now, let it end, afterall our problem is not that simple.. i want her to seek happiness rather suffer with my attitude.
Now, let me set my new goals, well should i continue my principle before all this start? surely the wound might disturb me but i have to bear it...all i know i not really ready for relationship from the way i feel now... i guess i am just a coward..
