i've seen my friend facebook quiz title " xxxxx just took the "What should your relationship status be?".. and it came to my mind, my feeling on relationship status, what it is? do i need someone by my side?... answer either yes or no, but i play with the words make it as, now not really.. am i denying the relationship? and again i answer, not really but it's just i not ready for it.. and next it'll be is it just ur excuse for avoiding relationship? and i just say, naah.. it's hard to get someone i can suit with.. well i was thinking, what type of person i am and what type of person suite me? i can't think any, it's simple but hard.. i don't like to be tied down, i want be free~ i don't want my mate worry on me, i am type of person that make person close to me worry much on me, make that person think i cant even survive by my own, but all these years i've been struggling to survive, i always have my own method to survive, to live.. my way of living is weird, it's like i make people think my life is over the edge but, somehow i ahve my own plans.. if it's doesn't work out, i'll always be saying " well it's ok, we figure some other way". i'm just a person who just want live a modest life, life that i don't have to worry too much, doesn't deal with people so much.. it's not like i am anti-social or something, it's just i want live a calmn, and modest live. people have no grudge on me, and i always be free to do wht i want. and surely if people bite me, i'll just slam 10000kg rock on them hahaha.. well i just want live a simple life..... when i have that simple life, then i will think how to enchance that simple life.
well most people nowdays want to live in luxury, lots of money and girls and all entertainment..somehow it's seems to be a happy way of life isn't it? that's what make me not suitable for realtionship, i can't find the person yet... eversince childhood, i draw a house by the lake side and dream to own the house, come back from work and have a nice weekend there... what a simple childhood dream.
hahaha don't know what the hell i'm blabberring now.. all in nonsense~ well, just have a feeling to post something, even it just a trash post.. :p
