Dear blog...
Yeah, another selfishness words of mine. Well i've been putting poker face a lot, even in my family showing my good-obedient son who listens to parent's words and only keep silence my own feeling. When anything i dissatisfied i just keep quiet (well i guess most of us did tht right?) well let say i did it too much.
Surely i've been tired doing that just keep all the feeling inside me buckle up everything and holding it deep inside. well the last time i almost explode when i was back to hometown because my late grandpa pass away. well my lil bro shows some rude attitude till i think it's too much, well i don't like him much anyway.. coz my parent were there i holding my anger just to silence.. they don't even say a word to him thou, coz event thou they say anything, like he care? but at least consider me, how i feel as elder? well that just some example hahaha trust me my family just like normal family it just me who abnormal coz keep stuffing my feeling inside me..
i wonder who really care about my feeling when i can say what inside me n listen to the end.. i wonder who can care of my feeling? and i can express my dissatisfaction or argument peacefully without worries? oh God..i hate my self...
