Today i start to have a thought to do the last thing, like to have the last date with someone, to have my last big mac, to have my last movies, to have my last roller coaster ride, to have my last milkshake, to have my last song, to have the last smiles,to have the last tears... gloomy shiny day for me today... even thought today have just begun... it's like a last day to begin with. Of course this is not, absolutely not a thought of dying ^_^ just to have "a last"...
Looping same song "Semua Tentang Kita" by peterpan.. i tried to empty my mind, try to arrange all things back to normal, back to the way it suppose to be.. i close my eyes as many time before i will see an exit, or a savior beam of lights that could save me from this, but this time it's all pitch black..dark and i couldn't see anything.. Like as i floating alone in the sea at night, cloudy night not even a star i could see from where i am, not even a shine.. I pray to god, what is it this time... another turn over? thanks for showing me the mistakes and thanks for giving me this chance to learn another experience... i'm not a good person but still i have faith in You, coz i always know, to You i'll be gone...
I've changed from who i was, my heart become more blind and cold... No more wise trick that i've always pull whenever i need to do it. All now just some stupid acts that inside me i can see it the chaos that might hit me because of it.. Why... why have i turn to this..... vengeful heart and cold heart...
Yeah...
