Love ka?

Ho ho ho, my hd still down, currently run some os from my pendrive.... well i am not going to talk about that here, hurm... yesterday when i on my way to lowyat plaza, (yeah about my hd-thinggy of course..) i saw couples, well young couple all around, they were happily walking together.. and suddenly i remember a phrase that i was being told or hear before, "Just loving is not enough"... at that time i was so oppose it, may be because i was so naive or love feeling was that strong inside my heart, then now my view changed... i answered "Yeah... it's not enough.." from that phrase i add more " Loving must came with willing to bear all things come up after that, for long, very long time.." hohoho my new statement, is it came from my coward heart again?

Seeing those lovebirds filled with love feelings make me realized something that my heart is empty... i had lost love for a very long time, i can't feels the warmth of love anymore... so all this time i only seek for girls just to have someone with me when i need,when i feel cold and empty... it's different, it's not love, i knew coz it was not the same as before, is it because i too coward to love? or my heart was already loose it's light? i don't know but i knew it's empty and i did try to get new lover,but it still the same, feeling just only longing for friendship and could not move more than that.. it hanged.. oh, is it i was not ready yet or the lights are really gone? i want to try to remember the feeling but i scared... heh.. like i said many times before..."love are really complicated" hehehehe
Oh my... i realize that my words start to portray me as an emo person
, hahaha trust me i am not that emo, my dress my style, all not emo at all, this is just what in my heart, partially revealed so it might not show all about me, yeah i need to keep some in here, inside me coz it might make certain people unhappy or hurt if i put all in here (i might get killed you know) hehehe so lets treat it as missing words...
So i did tried greyed my hair, and it's was a failure end up me shaved my whole head(i don't want to do the remake)..i did saw someone with perfect color of haired as i wanted, and she was a girl, she looks cool, hahaha i guess she have done it in saloon. well for now i gave up on grey color, and nor i will do white color, but need to wait till my hair longer a bit. Don't worry this time i will do it in a saloon, but need to survey the price first hehehehe. I saw some guys with white hair color, and i kind of like it (i mean the hair color and style, hey i'm still 100% interest with gals ok!) so want to try it up, if i was not nice on me, i will dye it pink!!! ngeheehehe
Well got some more stories, but i'll save it for next time, till then see u soon ^_^

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