Hurm let say, if u kill or destroy special feeling inside your heart for someone, will u won't feel hurt when someone gone? I don't know for sure, but if you deny feeling in ur heart, someday it will come to situation that u can no longer be consider as human being, yeah something like robot. u won't be able to feel happy or sad. Everything is nothing inside your heart, you will feel nothing, plain feeling. There's time u will feel so lonely and depress till you feels like u ar going insane. Then if you survive that, u will become nothing, not a human or any living thing, u will be just a robot... lifeless moving flesh... but surely this case still rare, most of them stuck at going insane and end up either in mental hospital or suicide.
Let it be, why so scared of sad feeling? betrayal? it's not like you never betray anyone before... if you don't want to be betray, carefully find person that you can trust....suddenly my mind feel blank and want to erase this post, what the hell that i am thinking now.. just feels like want to write this.. yeah some ideas came up inside this head.... u might think i have some love problem hahaha not really, it just about someone that i like suddenly i know she got someone special. but i just take it easy and go have some coffee on my own to get over it. since then i feel empty feeling, and everyday try to keep my mind empty... i called it state of nothing.p/s: i was "high" when writing this, seems like some music make me feel high hehehe~~
