I'm sorry i'm just an idiot

I've ignored too much feelings till my face can't show much feeling anymore. Sad, happy..anger...pain, it's all hidden beneath my face, my shady eyes..
I want gave all the best to you, but in the end it just another painful memory.. I can't really write love symphony, i only best in carving requirem in peoples heart. All left to me is only my friends where we laugh like an idiot in our hard life..

I knew it lead me to pain and misery... but still i walk towards it...i'm such an idiot.....i'm sorry...