Ah fark~~~ i'm down again.... how many times will it be till i really learnsomething?? i don't know my own self anymore, if people complaining to me "i don't even know u anymore" and i'll reply them, "neither me, i don't even know my own self anymore" i don't know where i'm heading to, i don't know how i feel, i don't know everything. i don't know my heart and sometimes i don't know am i hurt or what? i don't even know what i'm writing here..but there's a message that i want to sent to the world, so this is how..for at least i connected to world.. i'm tired but i still walking, even it is useless, but i still walk. i've said so many times that i'm walking on my own path.. in the past i will be proud saying that since i saw my clear view of my path, but it started to fade away, the path... has gone. now it's only just words, empty words, i'm walking on an empty path. i am lost soul, i know the lights, i seen the lights but yet i still didn't go for it, i still wander around, thinking "did i missed something? did i lost something? if i go.. i might left it behind all alone.." i'm stuck in time, no be able to move forward or back... why i just don't drop everything and leave it all...why i can't do that? what's holding me? my pride? my heart? my feelings?....
both my body and my mind are tired now... we've been walking non-stop till now,exausted.. pain... and stressed..... i'm breaking apart now...... why just i can't lead my self to the lights...why i still struggling here....for wht i'm holding up in here........
time ~eh???
