Of course i am not talking about friendship, because friendship have lots of values or meaning and you can have lot of friends and some of them might only be your friend when u meet eye to eye, or you every where you are, that friend will still contact you as that friend is always around you. I am talking about much more closer relationship.. am i being too cruel too my self? I felt like i don't have anybody as i am nobody.. it's like i am just a single audience, witness every people happiness around me and as i seek my own smile or a glance of happiness, often i'll fell deep down crushed in my nightmares.. I have nothing to complaint as my self is really idiot for these kind of things...
Yeah i am angered with my own self, too selfish of everything and being laze to change even though i knew it from the begin that it's all my fault.. now when i start to freeze my heart i realize all of this. it's now no turning back, i'll be on my own, if this only thing that can make me feel better.. i'm sorry everybody.. this is me, i can't no more live my life with this mask... i am tired.....
Which one is my real face?
