yeah some how someone i know gave me some explode feeling, like i don't know it is hatred or frustrated. and while talking to my friend and having my meggie goreng, i realize, i was facing the same feeling before, and how differently i act toward it...
forgiveness, let it be, chill that was the way i treat it before, but now is hatred, vengeful and anger... wow, i have turn to such a person? when i walking back i realize it, i am getting fatter, emotionally unstable and lost...
yeah i told my self, it's time so straight everything up, fuck off the love blues feeling, lets build up new self or go back to better self that i was before. somehow i felt that the person i was before is a bit better than person i am now..
well, hopefully i won't forget or lost this determination to change...... good luck to me......
empty painting of skies and grey land....
