yeah the most thing came out is, starting over again, different people to gain and gave trust that i once have, it's hard.. it's suffocating me. i got worried with, what she's might thinking now?, will i pleased her? will we be all right? how long will we last? is i am doing right thing? did i annoyed her? what will i talked to her for coming days?
i don' t know where the hell is those kind of worries came from, but each time i want to start a new relationship it'll be like that. i guess worries that the relationship will be like i have before makes me think like that... hahaha it's a paranoid is it?
may be, if i can endure it, the new relationship will came to me? will i have guts to start over? but for sure these things have made me lost some chances hahaha.... silly me ^_^ to be such a lame person...
