Yes back writing in english, i'm having hard time using kanji in writing in japanese since i don't learn japanese in school. Probably i really wanted to write in japanese, but i guess i'll just do it in english.
Ok most of my previous post, the content would be stray from the title, but i guess this post won't be stray to much. I guess i figure out what make me stress and tension for the past few months...
Ok let's back to my true nature, i mean they way i am before, may be most people don't know, i.m actually really hot-tempered type, but one day during my old days back there i trained my self to control my temper and such feelings. I bury them all inside my heart, just try to swallow, or forgive and forget. Doing so too much for long time, it's bad for my heart, stress and pressure that i hide inside torture my heart and feeling end up making me such a gloomy person from time to time and the end i explode and lost my rational just like i am now. No longer can think way for simple solution. Feels like everyone is my enemy, and even i get pissed of coz ant come and do free diving in my drinks.
When i recall back my moments for past few month, i laugh.. laugh at my self for my stupidity. It seems like i'm changing back to my former self, uncontrollable person, wild and... heh nvm.. am i cure now? am i ok now? I'm trying hard for it. Well as for now, i just need to clear my mind, anc calm down. "No matter how hard or sucks you life is, there's always be solution for it and escape door" that's what i always thought.
well, chill yo' everything's gonna be all right~
that's all for now, thanks~
"Our greatest enemy is our own self"
H.A
