I know... holiday still left almost 2 weeks more, and what the hell i'm doing here at cyberjaya??? hahaha well you know, base don my reason for FYP i came back early..
Hurm when i reach kl, i stay over my bro place. Yeah before that i took plane with my sister came back to kl.... it's smaller plane and shakes a lot up there.. well you know..raining and got storm up there... hehehe i listed plane is third place i should avoid.
Wake up around 9 something i sent my baby to shop....huhuhu got some problem and the guy came late.. well the guy says he wanted to check with the warranty, if the problem is covered in the warranty so i don't have to pay, but if not, may be fixing cost around rm200.. but i thinking not to fix, just grab some bluetooth headset since i don't call people so much. Well last year i think i just call only 3 or 4 people... i guess hahahaha.
Yup there's "storm" in my heart, well uneasy feeling came to disturb my heart, i told people not to think much but actually my self never stop thinking, thinking of everything. Fear to be hurt and to hurt came back to me, is it just my paranoia? am i paranoid? this fear makes me want to get far away from all people, for example now, i leave my family earlier even thou i still got more time for my holiday, i choose to stay alone here in my room... sometimes i rejecting people around me, and want to be alone and watch over people i love from far, protecting then from far... as i scared if i getting closer i might hurt them or i might getting hurt. i guess i being infected with psychological sickness am i?
when with people i love also i scared, coz when i don't have word to say, i scare she think i was bored with her or anything. that's why sometimes i say silly things and when i don't have anything to say...i worried.... shit i hate thissss!!
i don't know what to do..
that's all.... thank you....
I'm technically "Down" hahaha
H.A
