Lately i've been talking to my self too much. Beautifully sorrowful words keeps on sprouting.. Well not all thou. But one same words came to me everyday, "How are you today?" "How's your feeling today?" and by the end of day, when it feels cold, weird words came such "Who to hell cares if i'm happy not or not , i felt those happy moments before, so when i miss being happy, just recall those moments" or " What's big deal, sorrowful heart was my choice bear with it". Well these things for me it keeps me for being sane, hahaha well to those normal people will might have it differently but i don't care, it's my own way. Even back at home as i recall i only talks a lot with my mum, others, sometimes i tried to talk to them, but my voice just can't reach them. Well soon, i can imagine how my life will be. Hahahaha well here when my friends around i talks like drunk, talk about crappy2 things, i can't really directly express what's in my heart to my friends. I'm shy, hahaaha i guess not really, just my words it too complicated. Well sometimes people notice that something wrong with me, and open their arms to me, but you know, i prefer just being with them, drinking together, sing songs together, not exactly voice out my heart.
Yeah to think again i've use to share everything with my self, talking to my self, hahaha who else can listen better than your own self. well there's a saying that. "it's ok if you talk to your self, but there's something wrong if you start to answer to your self" hurm i gues sometimes i do answer my self like, whn i ask "how's ur feeling today" and i answer "sucks, as usual" hahahaha well who cares, it's been like that for all these years.. heh well there's many weird words that i've been blabbering to my self. i won't share it here, coz it's too many and too depress..
well that's all, thank you
H.A
